Getting my gear off

Are you seriously doing it? Yes I am.
Am I shitting myself? Yes I am.

I've always been like many other women and not at all confident with how I look. I never have been and  never thought I would be.  I've tried it all and nothing worked. The really special thing about living in LA is that all the other women appear perfect. In a physical sense anyhow. They are gorgeous. The things that aren't great on them they cheat and get fixed surgically. Cheaters! Not fair. At least when I was growing up it was always, "Well she is really pretty but she has no boobs. I have boobs so that can counteract her beauty." Whatever.

But then guess what happened? One day I got over it.

Now by that I don't mean I am happy with how I look because that would be a lie but I am ok with it. I mean really, I'm 33, I've had two kids, I've never been the hot chick and I never will be but that's ok. I am happy with who I am. I'm more confident, I'm no longer scared and I know who I am. I think that is kinda sexy in itself.

So if you didn't know I am working next week with the amazing Andreanna from Milk&Honey Studios to do a boudoir shoot. It's a joint project between Andreanna and myself. We've been planning it forever and now we're finally ready to get it done. All I know is that it's going to be in a studio, I'm bringing some corsets and I think I need to go buy some stripper shoes.....

...and yes, I am shitting myself, but that's OK.

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Wordless Wednesday

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Angus and Julia Stone - For You

It's a rainy but gorgeous day out here in Radsville today. Perfect for crawling up under a blanket and listening to amazing music.....

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Why can't it always be so cool?

Newhall temporarily stopped being a big fat ball of suck and became magical. How? Through art and umbrellas.

The City of Santa Clarita Festival of the Arts was in Newhall on Oct 2/3 and of course I was there. Anything artsy and I'll be there. Unless if it's just for flogging jewelry and junk because then I won't be there. (no i am not buying your crap, don't care if its handmade - it's still crap) I love seeing artists and musicians in their element...if you call Newhall an element. Well, to me Newhall is an element I suppose, but it's a negative one. I have a love/hate relationship with the place and basically it boils down to this - I think there is so much potential in that area to make something amazing but right now it's just blah. Could be full of coffee houses, galleries, music like a mini Pasadena kinda feel. The problem is this - Main St is crammed full of stores that I'd never want to go to and it just annoys me. I see super potential there but right now all I experience is #fail. (yes I just hash tagged my blog, again) I look at the buildings and walk around over to Hart Park and look at the stars on the ground I walk on and see the great new landscaping but see no-one there. If it was revamped it would be awesome...I think. Ugh. It drives me crazy. I'm sure they have tried it and it didn't work as the demographic down there is different and supports the stores that are there but how many are empty right now. I walked past the coolest little store yesterday that is available to be leased. I stopped and looked in the window and walked inside and thought seriously for a second but then I snapped out of it, walked out and kept walking. It couldn't work unless the whole street got revamped. My home town went through a similar thing, it's now full of coffee shops and restaurants and it works.  Newhall annoys me and I don't know why but it does. But anyhow it seems like once a year Newhall escapes the element of crap and becomes amazing during the Festival of the Arts.

I never bring my camera with me anymore, just my phone. I rarely edit photos anymore either as I have the retro camera and fxcamera apps on my droid and they do enough. Have a look at some of the street art pics from Sunday:

Here are some pics using the "regular" camera app. Look at how amazing the work is.

This last one here was done by two of my friends - Theresa and Susanne. So incredibly talented. Their drawing took 20 hours to finish. They started on Friday night and finished at 5.59 on Sunday. They worked through rain, wind, unbearable heat and I have the utmost respect for them and all the other artists.

The street looked amazing. Full of people and colours and incredible art. Even the pictures that weren't as professional as the others were still excellent. The time and effort put in just made everything even more special.  Two of my favourites were actually these ones, drawn by kids and about 10X13 sized. So cute.

That's what it's all about - participating and being proud of what you did. I watched a few of the musicians and singers and even the drummers and acrobats and they were all great. All different but all great. There were people painting and kids making sculptures and giant sand turtles and frogs. For me I liked the umbrellas hanging in the intersection. When I was there on Saturday it was windy and raining and the sky was grey. On Sunday it was hot and the sky was brilliant blue. The umbrellas themselves told a story. They had started in neat organised rows on Saturday, all spaced out, all hanging the right way that they had been hung. 

Then by Sunday they had become something new - like a work of art created by the wind. 

It was simple but brilliant. To me it was magic when I used my imagination. 

Today is Monday. The day after. Incredibly the city repaved the road last night where the art walk was. I drove past this morning and there was nothing. How fitting. There is nothing left so now until next October I guess Newhall has reverted to being a big fat ball of suck. 

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No writing. Whats going on?

I think everyone goes through periods of having a lot to say and then other times when there isn't so much to say. Right now is just one of those times. I'm sure as soon as I post this I'll think of something to write about. Seems to be the way my brain works.

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